Today I want to share a story about how God blessed me with an unexpected trip to England and Scotland back in March of 2017.
The idea that I have been out of the country still is completely mind-blowing to me. I do not have money, but I have always wanted to travel. All I can say is that God loves to bring surprises and blessings into our lives, despite what we actually deserve or think is possible.
Nearing the end of my senior year, life questions began to hit me! College? Moving Out? What the heck was I going to do with my life? Most of your friends are moving away, you need to get out too! These were all thoughts that constantly revolved in a circular motion in my head. I was pretty depressed. Being an adventurous person and hating the idea of routine and the familiar, I was annoyed with myself and even more so with God. Why has He not shown me where to go? Why has He not given me this “direction” that people talk about? Was I just a forgotten specimen?
So, my senior year was the first year that my school had art class in many years. So what do you know…I had the opportunity to take this class. During the last few weeks of school, we received our caps and gowns. The typical thing for the girls to do is decorate the cap however they want–usually something pertaining to what you are going to do after high school. I was wanting to do a typical floral design, but one day in my search for ideas I saw an image (on Pinterest…of course!) of “Peter Pan” flying over London. I thought it was the coolest thing. So the next day, I brought my cap to art class and began to draw, paint, and bedazzle. It was so inspiring to me. I had no idea why. Peter Pan? London? What the heck?
Moving on–I graduated, had my graduation party, worked my summer job, listened to my Dad’s advice and stayed at home, and attended community college. This a completely okay and great thing to do after high school–and many people do it, but I never thought that I would be the person doing it. I wanted to get out, move far away, and satisfy some of my restlessness. But this is where God had me for that season, and I was learning to accept it– bitterness wilted away slowly. I did not have very many friends around, but I loved most of my professors that I had–they were very encouraging to me during this time.
This one professor in particular, took special attention to me and she actually ended up helping me sign up for classes in the second semester. Going over options, she brought up a “Medieval British Literature Class”… this automatically sounded interesting to me…she then added that it included a trip to both England and Scotland. My mouth probably dropped through the floor…? Wow! Like what? I began to think about finances and knew that I had plenty of financial aid left over as well as scholarship money that could help cover the cost. I instantly signed up for the class! This did not feel like reality to me.
God knows us. He knows what we need! He knows how to “get” to us. I was having a lot of issues in even thinking about and having hope for the future. I was not wanting to apply to colleges because I was discouraged about doing really “anything”. After this meet-up, I was completely inspired–and began to apply to different universities that sounded like interesting options for the following year. I never had motivation for this until this point. This is when Regent University, my current school, began to become a “realistic” option.
Fast forwarding through the class and the trip (this was my very first time on an airplane and traveling on a larger scale), it was amazing! The trip consisted of about two weeks; venturing from London to Bath to Canterbury to Edinburgh and many other places. I loved every second of it and it really expanded my previous view of options for my life. I was able to see the world as a little bit smaller and less intimidating. I think it is ridiculous how much I tend to build barriers and limits to what God is able to do in my life in my mind. I usually never have a problem thinking well about other people’s futures but when it comes to mine, I usually downplay it by a lot. (God would never be able to use you like that! God will use you only as a last resort! –Are both a couple of lies that I need to call out continuously.)
So…I went on the trip and returned back home. I narrowed down my college options–and I decided upon going to Regent University. One day, as I was cleaning my room, I came across my graduation cap from about exactly a year before. I just sat there staring at it…”WOW!”(tears were shed). I had completely forgotten about it. This cap design was prophetic and I had no idea! God has proven to me again and again that He is in every detail. He is orchestrating every little thing in our lives. This cap is a continuous reminder to me that God loves to bless His children, our lives consist of many unexpected blessings, and that God has not forgotten about me. If I were to have left home right away, I would have never had this experience. If I would have taken things into my own hands and forced my way forward, I would not even be in the place I am now. For those of you feeling like your life is rather boring and nothing lies ahead, like God has forgotten about you, and like the desires of your heart do not matter–Think again!
I hope this story reminds you of the love that God has for you and that through Him anything is possible!
God is going to get rid of the “caps” (capacities) that you have for your life.
Thank you for reading!